too much of everything

I miss dad... yes, I miss my dad.. perhaps these feelings are percipitated by movies or shows that show a loving family and the sorts one may easily argue his / her point.. but the baseline is still that i miss my dad....

I don't know what am i doing writing this anyway... perhaps it's grief, perhaps it's jsut the pain resurfacing... there is so much "perhaps"..... that's at some point... it becomes too much.... too much to know, too much to bear....